Dare to dream. Dare to fly. Dare to achieve.

Since ages I have not been update my blog. This morning my bff was just telling me to update it because she has nothing to read. So here you go sapoh.

This picture I had edited quite some times ago. I feel the quote is quite suitable to put on this picture because that was a plane's wing. Which can be indicated as a human's wing. Human has no visible wing but they have invisible wing to fly up high. 

A human's wing is very powerful but yet fragile. To make the wing grows stronger, you need to have million or zillion of courage. Everyone not born to have wing. Even a bird born to has wing. But if it does not has courage to learn and fly, the wings on it was a wastage. 

I know that I have a pair of wing. And a dream make my wings become stronger. I know I can fly with this pair of wings. My dream is waiting for me. I want to use my pair of wings to reach the destination, to reach my dream and achieve it. 

"Dare to dream. Dare to fly. Dare to Achieve."

Love that I want....

I wish.....

To have a peacefully life with my love one beside the beach.

Sit along the beach from day to night.

Watch the sunrise and sunset...

Lye on the beach and look onto the sky...

See the moon and the stars....

Hold the hand until the end of our life...

That's the love I want in my life.

Moving On....

Yesterday I went out with my besties, Annie. We did something that we never do before. 

I feel blessed to have her because she is the one will never ask me for what happen but she will accompanying me to do anything. Thank you so much sweetheart! <3My life is moving on and on now! And I'll try my best to make my life better and to the best!

Idiots in my day!

Today among our colleagues have the reunion lunch before CNY since both bosses are not around.

At first thought this lunch would be nice one but who knows the stupid idiot talked something bullshit ended up my lunch with angers!

Who you think you are? You thought you are senior then very big? All also must respect you?

What the hell are your theory that if you cannot eat so much meaning that you don't have future in office?

Bullshit!

But as I know you can eat a lot but why you still don't have future and need to resign?

Can you please shut up for the another two more weeks since you going to leave?

Don't let me hate you more and more within this two weeks.

Can you please look at yourself before saying others!

You are not that perfect until can judge people!

You are nothing for me and you actually in my mind just a rubbish!

I hope that we will not meet again in the future! And please bring together both of your friends go! Once they are in the office, I think I'm going to suffer!

My god! When my three years bond going to end? Can the time pass faster?

But luckily, my mood changed to better after I went to shopping again! My god...I think I'm going to become a shopaholic soon because once I'm unhappy or angry, I need to shop to cheer me up! WTH!!! How can I do saving if continue being like this? No way! In order to do saving, then I have to learn to not upset or angry anymore. And please God, please be good to me. Bring away all my sadness and angers and ask them don't come near me! Thank YOU very much.

My day ended up with a pair of new sport shoe! I love it! :)

xoxo

Don't Judge ME!

I really hope to say this to my colleagues in my office!

You all don't know anything about me, so don't try to judge me or try to order me to change my learning way just to follow yours!

You got your own ways and I have mine too! Really feel want to punch or slap you all since now is my bad mood period!

Sometimes, I just want to take a long leave to go for a vacation or straight away resign.

But I know I couldn't do so because I am under contract and no matter how, I still have to work for three years.

I really hope to go to travel on my own.

Alone, no companions, nobody know where am I at, no one can find me, and no one is know me in that place.

I just need a peaceful and restful times. No complaints, no judging, no anger, no sadness, no bad mood and no unsatisfied.

But....it is impossible because my dad will not approve me to go travel alone. So, this is just a dream. A dream that I only can achieve when I am 30 years old I guessed.

The same day. The same feeling

Omg! I totally lose.
My tears were out just now. Just a little tears.
Why am I so weak in handling all these problems?
I've told myself that for this time, I can't have a little tear no matter what happen. But...
Why? Is it also because of today is the day you never talked with me anymore?
And also the day you started not with me anymore?
Why is it on the same day as last year? Why my heart felt so pain on the same day but is one year after?
I don't like this feeling. I must be strong no matter what is happening and what is the answer.
I think I shouldn't continue being like this if there is no answer for me.

一年前的今天

一年前的今天，我是最后一次听见您的声音，最后一次和您睡在一起。。。

就是去年的今天，您送进了医院

清醒了一天后，您就继续地昏迷了16天

那16天里，我们每天都跟您说话

希望您能听见我们，勇敢的睁大眼睛，和我们谈天

鼓励您，给您打气

每天都希望着奇迹能出现在您的身上

可惜。。。

那么快的，一年过去了

这一年里，确实发生了很多事

有起有落，有喜也有忧

不过对我最大的打击是您的离去

没留一句话，一个笑

什么都没有

我真的很后悔当时没陪在您的身边

让您在离开的路上那么寂寞

对不起，妈

我爱您！♥

New Year's Resolutions

New year is going to step on very soon. Just in 6 more hours time.

From small until now, I didn't really set a resolution for myself throughout the year. But I hope to make some changes in the coming year 2012.

I want to set up a resolution plan for myself to achieve in the year 2012.

Hmmm....so let's see what is my resolution 2012:

1. Learn up as much as things in my career. Don't keep wait for the senior to ask me to do.
2. Decrease my weight to the limit I've set since this morning I weighed, omg, I'm over limit!
3. No shopping anymore in the first half year of 2012. (because I spent a lots in buying unnecessary things.:( )
4. Must restart my exercise again! Twice a week if didn't go for outstation.
5. Must do savings.
6. Must learn to do some investment.
7. Must learn to love and care everyone in my life.
8. If found my true love, must appreciate him. Not to repeat my mistakes again.
9. Learn to control my emotions, my tempered. Do not easily get angry.
10. Must do some charity works and keep update with my sponsored kid!

I think 10 resolutions will be best for me. Hopefully that I can achieve all of these throughout the year!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012 to all my beloved family, friends and you. I love you all so much! ♥

Christmas Eve

It's Christmas Eve!

Nothing much happened during this week because all of us were on the holiday mood.

I felt myself very great because I was driving alone back from PJ to Seremban. This is my first time to drive alone and so long distance. But I felt good because I no longer need to depend on people to fetch me back hometown in future. Yippie! Does it count as a good job I've done before the end of year 2011?

Hmmm..whatelse? Oh ya...went to celebrate Christmas eve eve eve with my colleague and then went for a movie, "New Year's Eve". It was not bad, quite meaningful movie. And funny too.

Other than that, Thursday went to shopping with the colleague again and can't bought anything because all not suit me. So sad...nevermind, still got lots of shopping centers and boutiques waiting for me. :)

Today is Christmas Eve, hope my family and my friends have a great great celebration tonight and Merry Christmas! Love you all! <3

Mixture of Moods

Today got a mixture of moods.

At first was sleepy and boring because need to attend a stupid course whole day which actually only need 2 hours to complete. Wasted my time.

In the meantime, my colleague sent a message to another colleague who attended the course with me telling him that our company had declare 24th and 31st December as holiday and the suppose holiday on Monday is cancelled. I was WTH when I heard this news and moody since that.

Okay, that's nevermind since this is company's decision. I can't do anything also. Just can accept it.

After the course, I was happy because I went to One Utama to shop for Christmas's presents. When I saw all those Christmas's decorations, gifts, Santa Clause, etc....I was so excited. The feeling of holiday is getting nearer! I shopped for 1 hour plus in order to get those presents.

During shopping, I'd received a call from my colleague and she told me that yes, 24th and 31st December have declare as holiday but..... the following Monday also holiday! Waoooo....I was so so so happy! Meaning that I have three days holiday for both of this date! Thank you so much my company! :)

I think I have to plan my holiday now! Any suggestion, friends?

After I reached home, I got call from my father. He told me that there is a letter from PTPTN for me. I was like WHAT? I have no relation with PTPTN but why they sent me a letter? The letter content is saying that I owe them RM 21k. What the hell! I cancelled it once I got my scholarship and I didn't take any cents from you bitch! Government really stupid. I guess because of this, I need to run here run there to settle it since you all know that what is the attitude our government's workers have! Damn it!

My New Hair Style!

Yesterday my mood was really terrible! I almost wanted to cry in office!

But I controlled it because I don't want people thought that I'm weak!

But, something had lighten up my night - New Hair Style!

I've booked to do something on my hair one month ago and yesterday was the day!

I reached the saloon at 5.30pm and the stylist started to 'renovate' my hair around 6pm.

So guessed what? I used 4 and a half hours to complete my hair renovation!

My god! I was so hungry and sleepy!

But luckily, the result was satisfied and I think it is worth for me to get hungry and gastric. :)...p/s:(those who care for me please don't scold me because of gastric...LOL)

I scared of the curl hair doesn't suit for me and all the reasons for me to postpone until yesterday. Yea yea!!! I finally stepped out the first step for curled and dyed my hair! It's really needed a lots of courage for me to do it!

So people, if you want to do something, just go for it! You will never know the result if you never try! Once you've try, you know the result, and you will not regrets! This is applicable to all of you! In life, work, love and everything.

What I can say now is I LOVE MY NEW HAIR STYLE WITH NO REGRETS! :)

The most difficult part! My neck was so tired!

The product! ♥

爱。。。一直都在......Love....is always there

I just watched a video made by an insurans company. The story is about a father is going to die while his daughter is still a child. He wants to play seek and hide with her. He said he will hide longer for this time. So in the meantime, she has to help her father to take care the mother. The rule of this seek and hide is she only can ask her mother about where her father hide after 10 years!

It made me think about my lovely mom.

爱。。。一直都在......Love....is always there.

I suddenly so miss you, mom!

Just now told about you with my colleague, I felt like I'm going to cry but I control myself. I can't cry anymore because I'd promise I want to be strong and tough. So I will not let myself being so weak. I will not make you feel disappointed!

I so miss you........

遇见

‘要在对的时间遇见对的人，不要差一点错过了对的人。‘

我非常的认同和赞同这句话。。。
有些人，在错的时间遇见对的人
有些人，在对的时间遇见错的人
有些人，在错的时间遇见错的人
当然，也有些人，在对的时间遇见对的人。

我呢，希望我不会再错过那个在对的时间遇到对的人了！
我一定会好好地珍惜那个对的人。。。
因为，我不要也不想辜负和伤害那个对的人。♥

我也希望我身边的朋友能够在对的时间，遇见他们对的人，永远幸福快乐！

xoxo

Chances

"Everything has no turning point after it happened"

I very agreed with this statement. Once it happened, you can't turn it back because it might caused hurt in physical or mental.
Although you're trying to fix it back, but it is useless. There will always have a scar that you cannot recover forever.
I guessed the fixing period is important too. When people is giving you the chance, but you missed it, then it's too late when the time you want back the chance.
We must really appreciate what we are having now and don't miss out any chances that people giving you. Not everyone will giving you the second chance again once you miss it!
And then, everything is change and different!
That's why I appreciate everything I'm having now
Family, My best girlfriends and YOU.

xoxo

Update

I have mixture of moods recently.

Got happy, down, feel sick and tired.

These two days, my stomach feel uneasy. Feel like over acidic. So sour in my stomach and of course, it's suffering. Long time don't have this feel already but it came back yesterday! I hate it.

Then working life still the same and maybe going for the next outstation next week.

Hmmm...I'm too tired want to continue this post because of the stomach make me feel want to vomit!

I'll stop here! xoxo

Updates!

It's been long time after I've abandon this blog. So let's have a quick update.

I'm officially say goodbye to university's life and going to say hello to working's life soon.

Actually, I'm not very happy to this changes in my life. I have no excitement of graduation, no excitement of working.

After work, there will be alot of commitments and this is my responsibility. I scare I can't handle it well but I will try my best.

For the moment, I just stay at house and rest enough before my new life is starting.

Another thing that harras me is I need to drive alone in KL during my working life. Oh my god! I'm scare of it but I have to overcome this fear because I am force to! So friends, wish me all the best!

After almost 5 months of your leave, I still always think about you and and your everything! I'm just too miss you, mum.

God, my wish for the rest of my life is hope that my family members will stay healthy and happy forever!

缘分。。。

缘分来的时候，挡也挡不住。

缘分结束的时候，留也留不住！

消失的声音

今天，所有的亲朋戚友都聚集在我的家。所有的谈话声，笑声，都很熟悉，可是呢，就少了一个人的声音。从此以后，我再也不可能听到妈妈的声音了。以后也不会有那把熟悉的声音出现了。

一眨眼已经是两个月了！我的生活也没什么变化。

一样的烦闷，无聊，提不起劲做任何的事情。

心情也慢慢的平复下来了。。。

这个星期五会比较忙。。。

忙着筹备course night，跳舞。。。

我真的很累。。。过了这个，又要忙着温习功课应付考试。

快喘不过气了。。。真想抛开一切，享受人生。

星期四那天，旧公司叫我去应征工作！

希望能得到那份工，因为我满喜欢那边的环境，那边的人。。。

人生啊。。。真的很忙碌！

散场的拥抱

从你的眼角
慢慢的明瞭
我能做的很少
原来你藏着伤
但不想和我聊
你选的电影
像某种预告
不坦白的主角
最后流着眼泪
坚持独自走掉

散场的拥抱
我还在燃烧 但你心里的浪潮
拒绝让我看到
你煎熬 不肯定什么是最想要
爱才又像乐园又像监牢
散场的拥抱 混乱的心跳
多宁愿只是争吵
还能道歉和好
我知道 你留着和他所有合照
明明面前是答案 却撕掉不要

呵护的祈祷 温柔的讨好
爱能让人渺小 苦笑冒充微笑
浪漫得不肯逃

散场的拥抱
我还在燃烧 但你心里的浪潮
拒绝让我看到
你煎熬 不肯定什么是最想要
爱才又像乐园又像监牢
散场的拥抱 混乱的心跳
多宁愿只是争吵
还能道歉和好
我知道 我们和你们不能比较
但我的爱多强悍 出乎你预料

散场的拥抱
我还在燃烧 但你心里的浪潮
拒绝让我看到
你煎熬 不肯定什么是最想要
爱才又像乐园又像监牢
散场的拥抱 混乱的心跳
多宁愿只是争吵
还能道歉和好
我知道
太美的回忆相副手铐
越是挣脱越缠绕
我比你明瞭