Thursday, July 5, 2012

The worst period of mine.

It's been a long time since I've updated my blog. Today I'm really feel want to write something to express my feelings.

This week I feel so awful. The world seems like against with me. What I did also is a false.

I really myself very useless. I am a big loser in everything such as career and relationship with all the human being. Today, I am totally lose. I'm crying while working time. I don't know since when I become so weak. This is not me at all. I shouldn't be like this. But too much pressure and stresses on my shoulder, I feel like can't breathe at all.

For now, everyday morning, I feel like I am going to hell. It's torturing me because of you idiot. Did I offend you before? I didn't but you once and once again kept finding problem with me. I wanted to work peacefully with you, but you are the one who destroyed it. I really feel want to quit this hell forever. I'm so suffer. My sweetest friend told me not to do such decision at this moment because now I'm in the negative side. Every single decision I'll make sure will regret later. Yes I am totally agree with her but my patient limit has reached the maximum. No one can help me. And I will not get help from anyone because I can't be such a loser。

I really need a long holiday and be alone for this moment. God, please pray for me. Pray for me so that I can pass through this toughest time.I hope so.....