Love that I want....

I wish.....

To have a peacefully life with my love one beside the beach.

Sit along the beach from day to night.

Watch the sunrise and sunset...

Lye on the beach and look onto the sky...

See the moon and the stars....

Hold the hand until the end of our life...

That's the love I want in my life.

It's Dragon Year!

This year Chinese New Year, we whole family had joint my dad's friend and families went for a trip to the north. Here are the pictures that can tell the story.

Daddy and us! <3

The group picture!

Reunion Dinner of The Dragon Year!

This year is different from previous years that we had our reunion dinner for CNY at my house.

This is suggested by my besties and of course, I'd agreed too! It's special and fun!

I'm lazy to type since yesterday I slept at 5.30am and woke up at 9am.

Let's the pictures do the talking because a picture worth thousand words!

My loves always and forever!

Friendship Forever!

Happy Chinese New Year to all my family, friends and everyone who is reading my blog!

Have a great one ahead!

With love,

Ning Shing

Fulfilled Day

Yesterday was a really tired day!

Monday after work, went to sing k with my colleague until 8.30pm. Then followed by shopping at One Utama until 10pm. After that, I slept over at her house and drank some sparkling juice.
Then the next morning, I woke up at 6am because have to go outstation at Pahang.
What a damn trip! Took 2 hours to reach Bentong and had breakfast there. After that departed to Padang Tengku just to see see walk walk. Then it's lunch time.
After lunch time, back to KL again. At first thought can straight back to home but my boss kept change his mind and said want to back office. OMFG! I damn sleepy and tired because along the way, I can't sleep. Once I wanted to fall asleep, my boss talked with me again. T.T
Ok nevermind. After finish worked, we headed off to have our reunion dinner among colleagues near my aunt's house. This is the first time all of us having this kind of gathering although we gathered everyday in the office. But the feelings are different from office. We chatted, we gossiped, we shared, we ate and we drank! :)We cheered for ourselves! :)

Then reached home around 10pm! It was a fulfilled day of mine.
And this morning made me don't want to wake up because I felt dizzy. But have to come for work also. T.T
Today is the another two stupid colleagues's farewell party. I so don't wish to attend but as my colleague said, we just eat ourselve and no need to bother them and yes, I'm going to be like this later! XD

Besides, I got a dream this morning. I've dream about you. I was upset inside the dream. But I know it will not happen in reality. And thanks that you appeared in my dream. :)

Moving On....

Yesterday I went out with my besties, Annie. We did something that we never do before. 

I feel blessed to have her because she is the one will never ask me for what happen but she will accompanying me to do anything. Thank you so much sweetheart! <3My life is moving on and on now! And I'll try my best to make my life better and to the best!

自己

有時候，莫名的心情不好，
不想和任何人說話，只想一個人靜靜的發呆。
有時候，突然覺得心情煩躁，看什麼都覺得不舒服，
心裏悶的發慌，拼命想尋找一個出口。

有時候，發現身邊的人都不瞭解自己，
面對著身邊的人，突然覺得說不出話。

有時候，感覺自己與世界格格不入，
曾經一直堅持的東西一夜間面目全非。

有時候，突然很想逃離現在的生活，
想不顧一切收拾自己簡單的行李去流浪。

有時候，別人突然對你說，
我覺得你變了，然後自己開始百感交集。

有時候，希望時間為自己停下，
做完己還沒來得及做的事情。

有時候，想一個人躲起來脆弱，
不願別人看到自己的傷口。

有時候，突然很想哭，卻難過的 ………
哭不出來。

有時候，夜深人靜，突然覺得不是睡不著，
而是固執地不想睡。

有時候，走過熟悉的街角，
看到熟悉的背影，突然就想起一個人的臉。

有時候，明明自己心裏有很多話要說，卻不知道怎樣表達。
有時候，覺得自己擁有著整個世界，
一瞬間卻又覺得自己其實一無所有。

真的只是有時候，明明自己身邊很多朋友，卻依然覺得孤單。
有時候，很想放縱自己，

希望自己痛痛快快歇斯底里的發一次瘋。
有時候，突然找不到自己，把自己丟的無影無蹤。
有時候，心裏突然冒出一種厭倦的情緒，覺得自己很累很累。
有時候，看不到自己未來的樣子，迷茫的不知所措。
有時候，發現自己一夜之間長大了。
有時候，聽到一首歌，就會突然想起一個人。
有時候，希望能找個人好好疼愛自己，渴望一種安全感。
可當那個可以疼你的人出現的時候，你卻偏執地退隱。
有時候，別人誤解了自己有口無心的一句話，

心裏鬱悶的發慌。
有時候，被別人傷害，嘴上講沒事，其實心裏難過的要死。
有時候，常常在回憶裏掙扎，有很多過去無法釋懷。
有時候，很容易感動別人的關懷，

有時候卻麻木的像個笨蛋。
有時候，看著時間一點點流逝，

任憑歎息，自己卻無能為力。

其實，有時候，真的會想這麼多。　　
跟朋友裝沉默，跟陌生人講心裏話。
對於在乎你的，不想讓他們擔心，
有時候，沒有消息就是一種好消息。
其實，很想說“我很好”，或許是昧著心說謊，
也只是想把最燦爛的一面，

放在每個人對自己印象的首頁。
丟了自己，要記得撿回來。

双子爱

如果让曾经爱过你的双子
在你选择离开后
你说不想跟他再有任何关系后
他自愿从此消失在你的世界
证明了他是真的很爱你
非常在乎你的一切

因为双子明白爱情永远都不能勉强
一段感情是双方面的
所以他会尊重你的一切选择
双子不懂得去恨一个人
就算受了多大的伤害
他还是会爱着你
只是他会将爱收在心里
换个方式传达给你
消失就是他选择的方式

双子也不懂得后悔
因为他不在意?
很多选择?
其实他对你的一切都会在意得要命
特别是感情方面
双子异性缘好是无可否认
但就算身边有多少异性朋友
双子还是会分得很清楚
他爱的到底是谁
分开时
双子会尝试一切所有的方法挽回
就像孩子般
就算你提出什么理由拒绝
他都会很坚持不放弃
就算给拒绝多少次
明知道结果还是不变
他还是会不停尝试
因为双子不想给自己日后有任何后悔的理由
可是
你知道吗?
为什么双子会突然放弃挽回?
如果你对在尝试挽回你的他说:
"我们现在起别再联络,否则彼此都很难放下,我会很辛苦
"
"我现在想过全新的生活,我想我会比起现在快乐"
你会发现到
每天打扰你
想挽回你的他
在第二天永远消失在你的世界

双子的爱其实真的很简单
他只想把幸福快乐带给最自己在乎的那位
就算心里有多少百万个不愿意
不愿意从此失去你的消息
不愿意从此见不到你的笑
不愿意从此不能关心着你
不愿意从此不能陪伴着你
不愿意从此不能听见你笑
...
多少的不情愿不舍得都只能埋藏在心中

但是
当他知道如果消失在你的世界
能让你过得快乐
能让你尽快忘记他
能让你过你梦想的生活
能让你不再为他流下眼泪
...

那一刻
他明白
如果选择背弃自己的爱
能换取你要的快乐
能让你不再痛苦
他会走
不会再出现
心里怎么放不下你
他都不会再去打扰
只会从各种管道默默注意你
当他发现你真的快乐了
笑容多了
在远方的他也会为你微笑着
他心里会为了你的笑开心
因为双子的爱是成全和牺牲
他想要的很简单
只需要你的一个微笑
就足够他开心一整天了

双子在爱情方面很可爱
他所想要的都很简单
像小孩般容易满足
他真的爱上你那时
恭喜你
你是最幸福的
他会为了你的笑容
做任何傻事去换取它
自己受伤了
也会傻傻看着你笑
他只想你快乐幸福

曾经爱过你的双子
在离开你的世界后
在大众面前还是那么开朗调皮
但是
他的心是寂寞的
思念的心会让他
夜夜折腾
孤独的回忆起曾经的你们
触摸着你送他的小物品
反复阅读着你的书信
然后傻傻的微笑
继而哭泣
不让任何人触碰他的回忆

他会这样告诉自己
只要你现在过得很好
一切都值得的
没什么好遗憾
没什么好后悔

只是双子的心真的碎了
他的爱给了你就从不期望收回
就算以后遇过多少人
他都明白只有你才能永远住在他心里最深处
只有你才能让他放弃他自己的心
换取你所要的幸福
陪伴他的只有回忆
和永远都不舍得丢弃的
你送他的物品,书信...

Idiots in my day!

Today among our colleagues have the reunion lunch before CNY since both bosses are not around.

At first thought this lunch would be nice one but who knows the stupid idiot talked something bullshit ended up my lunch with angers!

Who you think you are? You thought you are senior then very big? All also must respect you?

What the hell are your theory that if you cannot eat so much meaning that you don't have future in office?

Bullshit!

But as I know you can eat a lot but why you still don't have future and need to resign?

Can you please shut up for the another two more weeks since you going to leave?

Don't let me hate you more and more within this two weeks.

Can you please look at yourself before saying others!

You are not that perfect until can judge people!

You are nothing for me and you actually in my mind just a rubbish!

I hope that we will not meet again in the future! And please bring together both of your friends go! Once they are in the office, I think I'm going to suffer!

My god! When my three years bond going to end? Can the time pass faster?

But luckily, my mood changed to better after I went to shopping again! My god...I think I'm going to become a shopaholic soon because once I'm unhappy or angry, I need to shop to cheer me up! WTH!!! How can I do saving if continue being like this? No way! In order to do saving, then I have to learn to not upset or angry anymore. And please God, please be good to me. Bring away all my sadness and angers and ask them don't come near me! Thank YOU very much.

My day ended up with a pair of new sport shoe! I love it! :)

xoxo

酒窝

转贴之前的故事：你脸上有酒窝吗？你知道酒窝是怎么来的吗？

传说酒窝的来历是这样的：
相传人死后，过了鬼门关便上了黄泉路，路上盛开着只见花,不见叶...的彼岸花。
花叶生生两不见,相念相惜永相失,路尽头有一条河叫忘川河，河上有一座奈何桥。
有个叫孟婆的女人守候在那里，给每个经过的路人递上一碗孟婆汤，凡是喝过孟婆汤的人就会忘却今生今世所有的牵绊，了无牵挂地进入六道，或为仙，或为人，或为畜。
孟婆汤又称忘情水，一喝便忘前世今生。
一生爱恨情仇，一世浮沉得失，都随这碗孟婆汤遗忘得干干净净。
今生牵挂之人，今生痛恨之人，来生都相见不识。
可是有那么一部分人因为种种原因，不愿意喝下孟婆汤，孟婆没办法只好答应他们。
但在这些人身上做了记号，这个记号就是在脸上留下了酒窝。
这样的人，必须跳入忘川河，受水淹火炙的磨折等上千年才能轮回，转世之后会带着前世的记忆、带着那个酒窝寻找前世的恋人。
所以朋友们请珍惜身边脸上有酒窝的那个人，
无论是亲人、朋友，因为他（她）也许是你前世的恋人，经过千年等待来寻找前世情缘未了的人，去完成前世未了的心愿，请永远不要去伤害他（她），因为不是谁都有勇气跳入忘川河，等上千年煎熬之苦。（原来我是那么勇敢的。。。为了寻找前世恋人而跳入忘川河，哈哈哈哈）

盼：
来生，再续前缘…
愿：
来生，还能再见…

上一世，我们没能相爱
这一世，我们相爱的太短
那，我们下一世见吧，继续的相爱。。。


祝福您们永远幸福快乐 ~ ^^

问

谁让你心动

谁让你心痛
谁会让你偶尔想要拥她在怀中
谁又在乎你的梦
谁说你的心事她会懂
谁为你感动

如果女人 总是等到夜深
无悔付出青春 她就会对你真
是否女人 永远不要多问
她最好永远天真 为她所爱的人

谁让你心动

谁让你心痛
谁会让你偶尔想要拥她在怀中
谁又在乎你的梦
谁说你的心事她会懂
谁为你感动

只是女人 容易一往情深
总是为情所困 终于越陷越深
可是女人 爱是她的灵魂
她可以奉献一生 为她所爱的人

如果女人 总是等到夜深
无悔付出青春 她就会对你真
只是女人 容易一往情深
总是为情所困 终于越陷越深
可是女人 爱是她的灵魂
她可以奉献一生 为她所爱的人

Don't Judge ME!

I really hope to say this to my colleagues in my office!

You all don't know anything about me, so don't try to judge me or try to order me to change my learning way just to follow yours!

You got your own ways and I have mine too! Really feel want to punch or slap you all since now is my bad mood period!

Sometimes, I just want to take a long leave to go for a vacation or straight away resign.

But I know I couldn't do so because I am under contract and no matter how, I still have to work for three years.

I really hope to go to travel on my own.

Alone, no companions, nobody know where am I at, no one can find me, and no one is know me in that place.

I just need a peaceful and restful times. No complaints, no judging, no anger, no sadness, no bad mood and no unsatisfied.

But....it is impossible because my dad will not approve me to go travel alone. So, this is just a dream. A dream that I only can achieve when I am 30 years old I guessed.

The same day. The same feeling

Omg! I totally lose.
My tears were out just now. Just a little tears.
Why am I so weak in handling all these problems?
I've told myself that for this time, I can't have a little tear no matter what happen. But...
Why? Is it also because of today is the day you never talked with me anymore?
And also the day you started not with me anymore?
Why is it on the same day as last year? Why my heart felt so pain on the same day but is one year after?
I don't like this feeling. I must be strong no matter what is happening and what is the answer.
I think I shouldn't continue being like this if there is no answer for me.

一年前的今天

一年前的今天，我是最后一次听见您的声音，最后一次和您睡在一起。。。

就是去年的今天，您送进了医院

清醒了一天后，您就继续地昏迷了16天

那16天里，我们每天都跟您说话

希望您能听见我们，勇敢的睁大眼睛，和我们谈天

鼓励您，给您打气

每天都希望着奇迹能出现在您的身上

可惜。。。

那么快的，一年过去了

这一年里，确实发生了很多事

有起有落，有喜也有忧

不过对我最大的打击是您的离去

没留一句话，一个笑

什么都没有

我真的很后悔当时没陪在您的身边

让您在离开的路上那么寂寞

对不起，妈

我爱您！♥