Saturday, February 19, 2011

Tears!

It's one month and two days you had leave me!
Mommy, I still will remember the time when you leave me.
You know what mom, yesterday auntie asked about you again in front of me and I can't control my tears anymore. Tears were queueing two lines on my cheek. I think no matter how long, whenever have people asking about you, I'll still will cry. I feel want to cry like no one care, no one know. Every single moment I had been with you still being so real in my mind. I feel want to hug you, talk with you, complain to you about my uni's life and every single thingy happened around me to you.
I need to pretend like I'm ok in front people. I don't like all these! When I think of you, I need to control my tears hardly not to let them fall down when in front of people. It's a tough job for me but honestly speaking, I think I had done a good job after all. I just failed twice being so weak!
I know everything and everyone still need to move on and so do I. I'm trying to do so. But when I saw some people have mommy to take care and love them, I felt jealousy and upset. I know I was very lucky already because at least I had mommy by my side for over 22years. While some other people don't even meet their mommy once they were born or when they were still babies. I know I am lucky! But I am greedy indeed. What I want is my lovely parents and siblings can be with me forever! Sometimes I rather think I want to be the first to die because like this I will not have any sad feelings. I know got such thoughts is very selfish and crazy but I am just a coward!

末班车

空着手 犹如你来的时候
紧皱的额头 终於再没有苦痛
走得太累了 眼皮难免会沉重
你没错 是应该回家坐坐

鸣笛声 悄悄地刺进耳朵
这一次挥手 恐怕再没机会问候
最后一遍了 换你躲进我双肘
像靠在 曾摇动我的天空

别说话泪水你别带走
镜子里的我 已留下你轮廓上的笑容
别回眸 末班车要开了
你不过先走
深爱是让不舍离开的人 好好走
鸣笛声 悄悄地刺进耳朵
这一次挥手 恐怕再没机会问候
最后一遍了 换你躲进我双肘
像靠在 曾摇动我的天空

别说话 泪水你别带走
镜子里的我 已留下你轮廓上的笑容
别回眸 末班车要开了
你不过先走
深爱是让不舍离开的人 好好走

别牵挂 约好我们再见
散步的午后 要像从前
再挽着手叙旧

别逗留 末班车要开了
路到了尽头 回头是爲
永留心口的人
好好走

Saturday, February 12, 2011

抉择

人生就是一场抉择!做每一件事情都必须做决定。
这几天,我周围的朋友都在困扰着到底要不要继续升造。
那当然我也是其中的一个。不过我想我已经做好了决定。
这个决定,也是我考虑很久了。种种的因素让我有这个决定。
不知道这是对的抉择吗,不过应该是目前我想要的吧。
我想我周围的朋友还有很多都还不能做决定,不过,我相信他们都会好好的考虑自己想要的是什么,然后做个明智的选择。
妈,对不起哦如果我的决定不是您想要的。
不过我答应您,如果有机会,我一定会实现我的梦想的!

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

没有您的除夕夜

今天是除夕夜,也是第一次吃团圆饭没有您在。
妈,您过的好吗?您有回来家陪我们吗?
非常的想念您呢。
第一年您不再与我们吃团圆饭,第一年您不会再给我们红包,第一年没有初二会娘家,第一年没有您对我们唠叨要我们收拾家里。
我真的不习惯这一切,不过所有的人都叫我要看开。
可是他们怎能了解我的心情呢?
您与我生活了22年,怎能说看开就能呢?
妈,虽然我在朋友的面前都笑笑,可是我内心可不是这样。
我不想他们为我担心,也不想爸与哥哥姐姐担心我。
我就是那么的脆弱,我不是人前的那么坚强的。
我宁愿懦弱。。。
妈啊。。。您在另一个国度会冷吗?吃的饱吗?会怕吗?
您不要怕呀。。。我会永远的支持您的。
妈,您不能忘记我,知道吗?我下一世也要做您的女儿,做您宝贝女儿,好好孝顺您,照顾您。
妈,新年快乐!我爱您!