It's Mother's Day

Tomorrow, everyone will post about Mother's Day in the social media. They will show where they are celebrating the Mother's Day with the mother. Flowers, cakes, kisses and hugs.

This is the 4th year my mother's day without my mother. I miss her so much. My life had been ups and downs in these 4 years. I could not share every single thing that happened on me to you. In this moment. I just very very miss you. How are you over there? Is the life there much better? Did you miss us?

Mom, I'm writing here to wish you Happy Mother's Day and I will always love you. Forever and ever. Until the day we meet again.

The End of 2014

7 days more and we will saying good bye to year 2014 and welcoming year 2015. 

For year 2014, I considered there were ups and downs, happy and sad happened on me. 

Let's reflect back what had happened on this year.

Early of year, I've been successful to apply for working visa which is one of my dreams. And of course, I was super duper excited about it. My mind was start planning when am I going to resign and achieve my dream, where I want to stay, what type of works am I going to do and etc. My mind was can't stopped thinking of these. At least, my dream is getting closer. 

In the first quarter of year, ups and downs happened on me. I was considered myself as the worst person. I did a lot of bad things in the quarter. Hurting people that I loved and who loved me. I was too childish and sucks. I can't believe that I could do something like this. I was so regretful to what I've done to them. At the same time, I can clearly see through who was the good and who was the bad. But at least now I found the best suit me which I don't feel regret of the past that I've done. 

On October, one of my dream places to travel was came true - Paris. Thank you for my boyfie who made this came true. I've been travelling in UK, Paris, Rome and Amsterdam. I was so in love with Europe countries. The foods, the fashions, the handbags, the dresses and everything were too attractive. I hope I can migrate over there and I believe that I can shopping until drop. The things were really cheap and all are branded. So now, I am working hard to seek for job in Europe.  

And dilemma was happened again. I was in a complicated mind. I have no enough money for me to resign and go for working holiday. I have too much of commitments and I did not plan well since early of year. And many of the old folks were advising me not to go as next year might be the hard year due to recession. They said since now have a good pay and stable job so I should not resign and go for working holiday. Some said why should I work so suffer to pluck apple, pack kiwi but not sit in the air conditional room to do simple job. That's make me so headache and I need to make decision fast. 

That's my whole year stories. It's Christmas eve today and I am going to celebrate it with families before the end of year 2014. Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to my readers! Cheers!!!

等待

等待。。。是每个人生命中一定会经历的事情
就从我们还没出世就已经在等待了
精子在等待机会跟卵相连
宝宝等待时机出世
打工的人就等待机会上位
还有很多很多的等待
等待加薪，等待爱情，等待美好的风景
其实所有的事情都必须耐心等待
美好的东西，往往会在你等待，你付出过后出现

而我，也在等待些事情
而有些事，也在我等待过后让我看到结果
我很庆幸，我没放弃
就很像这一天的日落
原本的我已经打算放弃不要看了
可是就是不甘心，不放弃
结果还是让我看到了这完美旅途的日落

谢谢你，让我的等待变得更有意义
让我的等待变得幸福

Dare to dream. Dare to fly. Dare to achieve.

Since ages I have not been update my blog. This morning my bff was just telling me to update it because she has nothing to read. So here you go sapoh.

This picture I had edited quite some times ago. I feel the quote is quite suitable to put on this picture because that was a plane's wing. Which can be indicated as a human's wing. Human has no visible wing but they have invisible wing to fly up high. 

A human's wing is very powerful but yet fragile. To make the wing grows stronger, you need to have million or zillion of courage. Everyone not born to have wing. Even a bird born to has wing. But if it does not has courage to learn and fly, the wings on it was a wastage. 

I know that I have a pair of wing. And a dream make my wings become stronger. I know I can fly with this pair of wings. My dream is waiting for me. I want to use my pair of wings to reach the destination, to reach my dream and achieve it. 

"Dare to dream. Dare to fly. Dare to Achieve."

被偷走的那五年

被偷走的那五年。。。

是一部值得看的戏

那虚构的故事情节，应该不会发生在现实生活吧

到底有多少个人可以做到不离不弃呢？

最后的那一段，让我回忆起当时的妈妈

当时的您，也是在痛苦中度过了17天

我们都知道您其实很想放弃治疗的

不过，您说不出，因为您是处于昏迷的

可是，我们就像男主角那样，不舍得，也做不到放弃您

终于有一天，爸爸告诉我们他决定放弃了

当时的我，是非常地生气爸爸

生气他为什么不坚持一点，或许会有奇迹出现呢？

但是，慢慢地我就觉得要爸爸做这样的决定必定也是很不舍得的

对不起妈，我们的执著让您辛苦了

对不起爸，我们的坚持让您难过了

我有时也在想，如果有一天，我是要做决定的那个人，我会如何呢？

我真的能下得了决定吗？

妈，您在另一个国度，还过的好吗？

妈，我念您！

莫名。。。

今天，心情莫名的不好。
心情就好像今天的天气一样，阴阴地
都不知道我的决定是正确吗。
感觉越来越不对
我曾经告诉自己：
要对自己所做的一切决定负责任，决不后悔
可是，我的内心越来越挣扎
心里就是有种不滋味儿
到头来，是自己把自己弄得一团糟
啊！！！！！不好的心情，请你快快离开
2014年，请你快点到来！
能否改变我的生活，就需等到2014年！

【永恒契约】手镯

【永恒契约】手镯

This is the bangle that I'd wish for after the drama "Triumph in the Skies II".

The story of this bangle is about a boyfriend presented this bangle to his girlfriend just to want her to stay with her forever. He'll keep the key by himself. The girl has no way to open the bangle unless to get the key from the boy. That's something like a promise between a couple where will not leave each other forever, will tide together forever.

And yes, I've just told him once that I wanted to buy this bangle because I saw it in the online shopping website. Then he asked me that how come is a girl buy for herself? That's no right what. Then I just laughed and said I'm just joking. I'm not going to buy it as I felt wasted. 

I think should be after couple of weeks, I've received this thingy by Pos. He said he wanted to give me a surprised by not asking me whether I am received it or not. But he felt that it took too long to reach my hand, so he decided to ask me whether I received any parcel or not these few days.

On the day itself, I saw a note pasted on my house's gate from Pos and it's for me. There is nobody at home, so I have to collect it from the office. So the next day morning, I went to collect it in the early morning as I was very anticipated what's the thing inside the parcel that he wanted to give me surprise.

So when I got my parcel, I straight messaged him that I got the thing! He asked me to open it through video call.

When I opened it slowly and "politely", tearing off piece by piece of papers and finally I saw the Tiffany & Co. box. I opened the box and I stunt and argghhhh... it's the bangle! The bangle that I wanted before. That moment I was feeling touch and surprised. I can't believe that just a simply joking, but he remembered it and put an effort to search for me this bangle. 

Thank you very much from the bottom of my heart and I will very appreciate this bangle.

Seven!

Seven days ago, I was sending you to the airport and saying goodbye to you. 

Seven days ago, at this time, you were on the plane while I was on my bed.

Seven days ago, I still can hold your hand, hugged you and smelled you.

Seven days ago, we were having breakfast and dinner together.

Seven days ago, yes just seven days ago. 

These seven days just a short period but yet I feel like seven weeks or seven months.

Why does the time pass so slow? 

Can I twist the clock to make the time pass faster?

Can I survive for the remaining 365 days?

Yes, I can and I must! 

Goodbye!

I've been saying thousands of goodbye to the people around me. But the feeling was not the same as this time. 

People always said sorry seems to be the hardest word but I would guessed goodbye is the hardest word. 

We should think for positive side which actually goodbye means that the day for meet up will come very soon. 

So, let's wait for the next meet up which I also don't know when is it. 

Happy trails to you, until we meet again. 

It's complicated

I have complicated feeling right now.
I don't know what should I do and what shouldn't I do.

相见太晚

如果相见不会太晚 我们就不会悲伤
和你堂堂的手牵手 过得好简单

若我有天不见了 或许你会比较快乐
虽然有万般舍不得 也不愿看你难割舍
若我有天不在了 请你原谅我的困扰
虽然你给我的不算少 只是我没福气要

就算是完美 怎么牵拖都不对
不忍看你那么辛苦 我所能为你做的
只有默默的 祝你幸福

如果相见不会太晚 我们就不会悲伤
和你堂堂的手牵手 心里不会有愧
如果相见不会太晚 我们就不会遗憾
快快乐乐的不会纠缠 过得好简单

若我有天不见了 或许你会比较快乐
虽然有万般舍不得 也不愿看你难割舍
若我有天不在了 请你原谅我的困扰
虽然你给我的不算少 只是我没福气要

就算是完美 怎么牵拖都不对
不忍看你那么辛苦 我所能为你做的
只有默默的 祝你幸福
如果相见不会太晚 我们就不会悲伤

和你堂堂的手牵手 心里不会有愧
如果相见不会太晚 我们就不会遗憾
快快乐乐的不会纠缠 过得好简单
快快乐乐的不会纠缠 过得好简单

5天跨洲之旅

2013 Raya 新年，是第一次那么的多姿多彩。
7日，我们仨人浩浩荡荡地一路向北的出发。
如果跟着行程，我们应该在怡保停车的。
可是，到了一半，我们就想说做些疯狂的事情，
所以我们继续往北去-槟城
我们去了壁画，Ubah 鸟，姓氏桥，买了香饼，5个小时的槟城之旅就结束了。
之后，我们就开车去Bukit Tambun 吃海鲜。

接着，就启程回怡保了。
到了怡保，已经是9点多了。
可是，The night is still young.
我们就去泡温泉。
虽然只泡个1小时，不过也蛮舒服的。
然后当然就是去吃宵夜咯。
最后，才会酒店休息了。
第一天就这样充实的结束了。

第二天，我们就吃了早餐向Kellie's Castle出发去。
到了那边，我们当然一如往常的拍照咯。
有那么好的风景，我们当然要像模特儿那样的摆莆士咯。
差不多在那待了两个小时，我们就出发去载我的roommie.
接了之后，就去怡保街吃午餐，喝豆浆，买土产。
大概5点就开着车回吉隆坡了。
回到吉隆坡，故事还没完毕的。我和roommie就meet另一个从马六甲上来的roommie.
我们就在mid valley吃晚餐和逛逛。
接着，就回家休息咯。
第二天，就是这样了。

第三天，我们吃了肉骨茶后就去Time Square血拼了。
买完要买的东西，我们就会芙蓉了。
回到芙蓉，我们休息了一会儿，就去唱K。
唱到差不多7点，就去吃火锅了。
吃完就回家休息。

第四天，一大早我们就去吃芙蓉出名的点心。
吃完之后呢，就出发去马六甲玩。
在马六甲就是走走吃吃看看咯。

第五天，我们就各自回家咯。
晚上，我就开车会吉隆坡了。

这5天的假期，就是过得那么的充实。
穿越了5个洲，吃过了无数的食物，去过了想要去的地方，见了很久没见的人。
人生啊。。。就是要这样。

好期待下一次的旅程。

Paris, The City of Love

Eiffel Tower, Paris, is a place that I always want to go once in my lifetime with my beloved one.

The place is full with romance and loves. 

With a hug or a kiss, I think I am the most happiest and blessed girl in the world. 

Thanks to the person who gave me this card and make me so so so wanna to go there now. 

Thanks for the effort to make my dream awoke.

The most touching part is something that I can't believe. 

I don't know is that real but I will choose to trust it will happen. 

Paris, please wait for me. I will come to visit you soon. 

幸福？自由？

人是贪心的，不满足的。。。

一直只想再找更好的。。。

明明我是幸福的。。。

可是我就不知足。。。

真的是我的问题吗？

这几天都在想着这事情

我期望的生活，未来，都不是像现在那样的

我要的，是自由自在的，追寻我的梦想

见识多一点不同的事物，去不同的地方，体验不同的生活，

可是，如果我还继续现在的生活，我是不可能做到以上的一切

我慢慢地发现，我已经不渴望稳定了 

我要的是刺激，那种能让我心跳要爆炸的感觉

太过安逸的生活，让我觉得很无聊

我觉得我还没能接受稳定下来

我知道一定会有很多人骂我笨，笑我蠢

明明我可以是很幸福的人

可是，就是我自己自找麻烦

天啊。。我到底要怎么做呢？

要如何取舍呢？

时间，会是个答案吗？

是我变了吗？

最近发现自己好像变了。
变得不再介意，
变得不再关心，
变得懒散，
变得不再像以前那样，
变得好像可有可无，
变得连我自己也不知道怎样了。

我的问题吗？
真的是我变了吗？
还是。。。。。

希望一切会变好！

KISS Principle

The KISS principle from the drama "Triumph in the skies II" is very useful and meaningful to my life.

Keep

It

Simple

Stupid

Yes, can't deny that I'm always make things become complicated even just a little small thing.

Just like today, my colleague had asked me a question which has a simple answer. Although I have the correct answer in my mind, but yet I'd thought too much and made the answer complicated. She'd told me to use KISS principle and don't think too complicated and be confident to myself and to the answer.

From that moment, I just realized that I really think too much. No matter in studies, work, love, friendship and even my whole life. Because of this complicated mindset, I have ruined a lot of things. I've found out that one person being simple is not a bad thing. At least, he/she will be more happier than those who think too much like me. They enjoy their life more  than I do. A simple person will has less trouble and maybe look younger from outside and even deep heart inside.

From now on, I will try to learn to become a simple person. Simple yet gorgeous person. I will always bear in mind the KISS principle and apply in the rest of my life.

Life, Reality & Dream

Recently, my mind is keep spinning around for lots of thing. It's all about my future, life, career and myself. The feeling to achieve all my dreams is getting stronger and stronger day by day. I can't stop thinking about it. I was always thinking of change in my current life. I'm feeling bored with all these which myself doesn't really like it. This is not the life I want in the beginning. 

Life after graduated and working is miserable, ups and downs. There are kinds of people appeared around me for this two years. Can't deny that in this two years, I've learnt a lots of thing. Such as how to handle with those so called "fake people", how to speak and present yourself in front of various types of people, and how to achieve my dreams.

During the past two years, I've been travel to few countries like Cambodia, Thailand, Singapore and Taiwan. In the travel, I felt relieve and relax. I've gained experience on how to communicate with different races, languages and culture. From the moment I started my travelling journey, I can't stop myself from travel anymore. I just wanted to travel more and look more into the big big world. To see different things from what I've seen normally. I wanted to broaden my vision through travelling around the world during the rest of my lifetime. I don't want to become a frog under the well. 

Well, talk usually more easier than you action. There are lots of factors that will caused you from doing what you really want to do. Travel needs money. Money need to earn from working. Working means you need to face all the unnecessary wars. That's pathetic, right? I know the way I'm thinking is childish which everyone needs to face the reality. But I prefer and I wish to work on something that I'm really interested. 

In order to fulfilled my dream which is travel, I've applied one job which very suitable for me. But I knew that the percentage of getting the job is quite low or should say zero percent but who care? As long as I took the first step and applied. The result is what doesn't matter because I did it. I did the first step to achieve my dream. I feel my dream is getting closer to me. Hopefully the result will not be disappointing and God bless.

So friends out there, let's work hard together to achieve the dreams in your heart. Take the first step to make the dream closer to you but not further from you. Have a nice day!

要求是错吗？

人有要求，有错吗？

人有了要求，就会不快乐。。。

要求了，得到的就只有不想要的答案，是为什么呢？

人为什么要要求？

我这认真的很失败。。。

就是爱要求。。。要求这个，要求那个。。

我知道，要求别人，还不如要求自己。

所以，从今以后，我不会再要求任何东西了。

我要的东西，我会自己得到，不需要任何人的施舍。

辛辛苦苦找的，换来的是什么？

换来的就只有不稀罕。。。

那为什么还要犯贱自己呢？

你要的，以后你自己想办法得到，不想再一厢情愿的下去了。。。。

阴沉 。 心情 。 天气

今天，一早起身，就发现到外面的天气好像铺满着阴霾，昏昏沉沉地感觉。它就象征着我今天的心情。

这几天，心情就像海浪一样，有起有落，非常得不稳定。今早跟不用说，因为今天我觉得是这几天最低落得一天。或许，我太过敏感，有或许是我想得多。不过，这一切的所作所为，让我不能不去想。

或许，真的！人是没有完美的。这一刻对你好并代表下一刻还是一样的。也许，口说这样，也并不代表心想也是一样的。我真的真的需要调整自己的心情，感受，不要再为了这样的不一定而搞到自己翩体鳞伤，到最后，苦的只有自己。

宁欣啊，看开点吧，快乐的过你想要的生活，做你想要做的事吧！

开心放得下

算了吧

没关系

会过去的

记得三句话

开心放得下

这些话说得都没错，非常好。你硬硬要不算，有关系，过不去，那你又得到什么呢？换来的只有生气，伤心，烦恼，伤身。人要学会了这些，生活真的会比较开心。

我呢，还在学习着。我自认我还是初学者。因为我还会在意，会不开心，会烦恼，还是看不开。所以就必须找事情来掩盖，消除我的不满。可是，真的能行吗？真的看了笑话篇，跟朋友倾诉了，会开心回吗？会忘了烦恼吗？我本人觉得不管用在我的身上。所谓：心病还需心药医，解铃还需系铃人。

希望，我能很快的学起来，永远做个没烦恼，快乐的人。