Monday, January 31, 2011

Outing

I went to temple yesterday with sis and bro because boyfie's mom asked me to go there to do something.
Then I called her and she said alot of things that made me feel touch. Thanks auntie.
Yesterday I went for gathering with old-school-mates.
This is the first time I met them after mom leave.
I was so relieved after had a chat with them.
They really are my happy stars.
I love them so much....Thanks for by my side whenever I need you guys!
We going to have a reunion dinner tomorrow!Yippie....

Saturday, January 29, 2011

。梦。

妈,前几天我在KL家睡觉的时候,我梦见您来参加我的毕业典礼呢!
那是多么的真实,您知道吗?
我抱着您,眼泪就不自觉地掉了下来。
梦中的我,是开心的哭了。
抱着您的时候,我能感觉到您的体温,是温暖的。
您知道吗?我是多么的希望我的梦可以成真,您可以真的来参加我的毕业典礼。
我的心很痛。。。
当我醒过来后,才知道这只是个梦!
妈,不管怎样,我都希望您能来参加我的毕业典礼。

Friday, January 28, 2011

Goodbye's the saddest word

Mama you gave life to me
Turned a baby into a lady
And mama all you had to offer
Was a promise of a lifetime of love
Now I know there is no other love
like a mother’s
Love for her child
I know
love so complete
someday must leave
Must say goodbye


Goodbye’s the saddest word I’ll ever hear
Goodbye’s the last time I will hold you near
Someday you’ll say that word and I will cry
It’ll break my heart to hear you say goodbye

Mama you gave love to me
Turned a young one into a woman
Mama all I ever needed
Was a guarantee of you loving me
’Cause I know there is no other love like a mother’s
Love for her child
And it hurts so
That something so strong
Someday’ll be gone
Must say goodbye

Goodbye’s the saddest word I’ll ever hear
Goodbye’s the last time I will hold you near
Someday you’ll say that word and I will cry
It’ll break my heart to hear you say goodbye
But the love you give will always live

You’ll always be there every time I fall
You want to be the greatest love of me
You take my weakness and you make me strong
And I will always love you till forever comes
ah...........
And when you need me
I’ll be there for you always
I’ll be there your

Goodbye’s the saddest word I’ll ever hear
Goodbye’s the last time I will hold you near
Someday you’ll say that word and I will cry
It’ll break my heart to hear you say goodbye

Thursday, January 27, 2011

妈,我生病了!可是,这次我再也不能亲口和您撒娇了。
生病的时候最想念您了。
今天是您回魂的日子,所以我们全部都回家。
我也开始放假了。所以啊妈,我会有一个礼拜多可以在家陪您了。
妈,我想要您可以照顾生病的我。
我真的很想念以前和您的一切一切。。。。

Monday, January 24, 2011

Today!

Mama, today I started to back to uni's life again.
Once reached uni, I doesn't feel like want to talk. Doesn't want to social.
Just don't have the mood.
My mind keep thinking of you.
Last week at this time, you just leave me. Leave me without saying anything to me. And I was on my way back to see you. I was so regret that I didn't accompany you. When I saw your body, your heart didn't beat anymore. Your eyes didn't open again. All the machines that connected to your body already been moved. You didn't response to me when I was calling you. I just keep thinking of that scene. I can still felt your body is warmed. But the reality is you already gone.
You know what, I feel stress as well because I missed 3 weeks' lectures and I scared that I can't cope with it. I scared I will disappoint you.
I'm scare of everything without you by my side.
I suddenly feel that I don't like KL's life.
I want to back hometown.
At least at there, I still can refresh back everything you did in the house and also company dad.
Mama, I really miss you alot.
I don't know when can I stand up again but I really need your support.
Mama, can you appear in front of me? Can you let me feel that you are beside me always whenever and wherever I am?
Frankly speaking, I hate Monday! I hate Monday's noon! I hate 17th.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

头柒

妈,今天是您离开的第7天了。。。
在这7天里,都没有您的声音,您的气息,您的味道。。。
妈,您有回来家里看我们吗?
为什么您没有出现在我的梦中呢?
您真的不要我了吗?
我对您说过的。。。
我愿意陪在您的身边照顾您的。。。
您回来吧,妈!
回来让我实行我对您的承诺吧,好不好?
您知道吗?我今天想起那天在医院看您的最后一面。。。
我觉得他们很残忍。。。为什么那样的对您呢?
为什么不尊敬您呢?
看了让我觉得心碎。。。
妈,对不起。。。我没好好的保护您!

Saturday, January 22, 2011

三朝

刚刚从墓园回来,因为今天是妈妈三朝。
说真的,家里没有了妈妈是很不自在的。
大哥昨天才说少了妈妈,家里变得很无聊。
我心都酸了。。。看着妈妈以前的照片。。。不禁想起以前的点点滴滴。
以前,每天都是一家人坐着吃饭的。可是,现在您却不在了。不再和我们坐一起,有说有笑的吃饭了。
我看着您的食物是摆放在您的灵牌前,而不是和我们一起吃了,就不禁的心痛了!
妈妈真的很可怜。。。还没有儿女享福,就这样走了!
妈。。。我的这个部落格以后将会写关于我对您的思念!我知道您一定会看到的。
我对您的思念不会减少的。。。我也不会忘记您!我会永远想念您,永远把您留在我的心中!
妈,以后我有什么事,我一定会告诉您的。一定会像以前一样和您分享我的一切的!永远都不会改变!我对您的爱。。。会是永远的!

Friday, January 21, 2011

第五天

今天是您离开我的第五天。。。
早上一起身,不见您的踪影了。
您平常躺的椅子也不再看到您了。。。
没有您的声音,您的笑声。。。真的很不习惯
再也不会有您对我唠叨,对我关心的声音了。
真的很怀念您的声音!
妈。。。您还好吗?
一个人会怕,会孤单吗?
我知道您一定会寂寞的。。。因为您是那么的喜欢热闹,喜欢我们陪在您的身边。
每当我放完假要回去读书,您一定会告诉我您很不舍得,会很寂寞,因为没人很您谈天了。
每一次您这样说,我就会很心酸,因为我是多么的想每天留在您身边呢。
我真的很想能陪在您的身边,照顾您,侍候您,陪您聊天。。。
妈,我想要见您!

Thursday, January 20, 2011

一切都不一样了

我最爱的妈妈已经离开我第4天了。
昨天晚上是我最后一次见到我的妈妈真人。。。最后一次了!
她彻底的离开了我。
我非常的不舍得妈妈!为什么老天爷要那么快把我妈妈带走?
她还很年轻。。。心地善良,待人随和,她也没做坏事。。。可是为什么就让她就这样的离开我们呢?
她还有很多东西还没做的。她要参加我的毕业典礼,哥哥的婚礼,姐姐带男朋友回家。。。
妈。。。为什么您不要坚强一点战胜这一关呢?我们还很需要您的。。。
如今。。。我的生活点滴再也没有您的出现了!我不甘心!您说您最疼我的。。。可是为什么您就那么忍心的丢下我呢?
我还不会照顾我自己的。。。
我情愿生病的人是我。。。受苦的也是我。。。我什么都甘愿,只要妈妈您回来!
您还没让我好好照顾您,报答您的养育之恩。您也还没有享福的!
妈。。。您知道吗?我有很多很多的东西要和您讲的。
我很恨当初无知的我。。。当您还在的时候,我却跟您赌气一个月不和您讲话!可是现在呢。。。我要讲,您也不能回答我了!我真的很恨我自己!恨我伤害您的心!我也很后悔没有好好的珍惜您!妈。。。。。。我很想念您!您可以回家看看我吗?可以出现在我的梦中让我与您谈天吗?妈。。。。。。您的宝贝女儿非常的爱您,想您!!