3 weeks of study week is starting since Friday.

But I let myself be lazy and relax, my study week start only after today which means tomorrow, yes! It's tomorrow I'll going to start my study week.

These two days I was busying complete my half-way-drama and play The Sims. I loved this type of life very much. No need to work, no need to study. No worries, no stress. Be myself, no need to meet anyone and be the fake me. Will I have such life when I'm still alive?

Sometimes I'm pessimistic. Sometimes I'm weak. And sometimes I hate. I hate all the things around me. Hate myself being like this. Hate everyone who gave me alot of problems. Hate studies. Hate lecturers and hate many more.

I know we shouldn't hate anyone because they have their rights of doing something. So I'll just hate myself being such a coward, such a fake people.

I'm not tough at all! I was fulled of stress!

真诚的对待一个人，得到的却是伤害！
为什么他们伤害了我，可是我还要对他们好呢？
或许是我笨？
别人都不珍惜我对他们的好，那我为什么还执着的付出呢？
唉。。。。
非常不喜欢这样的感觉！
他们只会在乎他的感受，难道就因为我人无所谓，所以我的感受就不须理会吗？
我真的放弃了！我已告诉自己。。。。我不会在为你而伤心了！

好人，坏人？

我想了又想。。。终于做了决定。
因为一件事情的发生，让我看到了人类的可怕。
说谎，欺骗。。。他是善意的吗？
要是善意的谎言我也还能接受。不过。。。我想他是恶意的吧！
我已经学会了一句东西。。。
就是。。。好人没好报！
我到今天才觉悟了！
所以啊。。。我要学习做坏人！
至少，坏人被骂，被诬赖也不会伤心难过。
因为他们都有了心理准备被责怪！
我不会再讨厌他，生气他。因为他不值得和没这个分量在我心中出现！
朋友是一辈子的。。。这是我常常在想的。。
不过。。。究竟会有几个真的会那么做呢？
有几个真的能和我做一辈子的好朋友呢？
人啊。。。总是善变的!
这个我非常地明白！
所以。。。我也只能尽我的能力去挽留任何一段我觉得值得的友谊！
你相信对方不代表他也会相信你！往往他就是出卖你的人。
相信别人，倒不如相信自己吧！