It's Mother's Day

Tomorrow, everyone will post about Mother's Day in the social media. They will show where they are celebrating the Mother's Day with the mother. Flowers, cakes, kisses and hugs.

This is the 4th year my mother's day without my mother. I miss her so much. My life had been ups and downs in these 4 years. I could not share every single thing that happened on me to you. In this moment. I just very very miss you. How are you over there? Is the life there much better? Did you miss us?

Mom, I'm writing here to wish you Happy Mother's Day and I will always love you. Forever and ever. Until the day we meet again.

The End of 2014

7 days more and we will saying good bye to year 2014 and welcoming year 2015. 

For year 2014, I considered there were ups and downs, happy and sad happened on me. 

Let's reflect back what had happened on this year.

Early of year, I've been successful to apply for working visa which is one of my dreams. And of course, I was super duper excited about it. My mind was start planning when am I going to resign and achieve my dream, where I want to stay, what type of works am I going to do and etc. My mind was can't stopped thinking of these. At least, my dream is getting closer. 

In the first quarter of year, ups and downs happened on me. I was considered myself as the worst person. I did a lot of bad things in the quarter. Hurting people that I loved and who loved me. I was too childish and sucks. I can't believe that I could do something like this. I was so regretful to what I've done to them. At the same time, I can clearly see through who was the good and who was the bad. But at least now I found the best suit me which I don't feel regret of the past that I've done. 

On October, one of my dream places to travel was came true - Paris. Thank you for my boyfie who made this came true. I've been travelling in UK, Paris, Rome and Amsterdam. I was so in love with Europe countries. The foods, the fashions, the handbags, the dresses and everything were too attractive. I hope I can migrate over there and I believe that I can shopping until drop. The things were really cheap and all are branded. So now, I am working hard to seek for job in Europe.  

And dilemma was happened again. I was in a complicated mind. I have no enough money for me to resign and go for working holiday. I have too much of commitments and I did not plan well since early of year. And many of the old folks were advising me not to go as next year might be the hard year due to recession. They said since now have a good pay and stable job so I should not resign and go for working holiday. Some said why should I work so suffer to pluck apple, pack kiwi but not sit in the air conditional room to do simple job. That's make me so headache and I need to make decision fast. 

That's my whole year stories. It's Christmas eve today and I am going to celebrate it with families before the end of year 2014. Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to my readers! Cheers!!!

等待

等待。。。是每个人生命中一定会经历的事情
就从我们还没出世就已经在等待了
精子在等待机会跟卵相连
宝宝等待时机出世
打工的人就等待机会上位
还有很多很多的等待
等待加薪，等待爱情，等待美好的风景
其实所有的事情都必须耐心等待
美好的东西，往往会在你等待，你付出过后出现

而我，也在等待些事情
而有些事，也在我等待过后让我看到结果
我很庆幸，我没放弃
就很像这一天的日落
原本的我已经打算放弃不要看了
可是就是不甘心，不放弃
结果还是让我看到了这完美旅途的日落

谢谢你，让我的等待变得更有意义
让我的等待变得幸福

Dare to dream. Dare to fly. Dare to achieve.

Since ages I have not been update my blog. This morning my bff was just telling me to update it because she has nothing to read. So here you go sapoh.

This picture I had edited quite some times ago. I feel the quote is quite suitable to put on this picture because that was a plane's wing. Which can be indicated as a human's wing. Human has no visible wing but they have invisible wing to fly up high. 

A human's wing is very powerful but yet fragile. To make the wing grows stronger, you need to have million or zillion of courage. Everyone not born to have wing. Even a bird born to has wing. But if it does not has courage to learn and fly, the wings on it was a wastage. 

I know that I have a pair of wing. And a dream make my wings become stronger. I know I can fly with this pair of wings. My dream is waiting for me. I want to use my pair of wings to reach the destination, to reach my dream and achieve it. 

"Dare to dream. Dare to fly. Dare to Achieve."

被偷走的那五年

被偷走的那五年。。。

是一部值得看的戏

那虚构的故事情节，应该不会发生在现实生活吧

到底有多少个人可以做到不离不弃呢？

最后的那一段，让我回忆起当时的妈妈

当时的您，也是在痛苦中度过了17天

我们都知道您其实很想放弃治疗的

不过，您说不出，因为您是处于昏迷的

可是，我们就像男主角那样，不舍得，也做不到放弃您

终于有一天，爸爸告诉我们他决定放弃了

当时的我，是非常地生气爸爸

生气他为什么不坚持一点，或许会有奇迹出现呢？

但是，慢慢地我就觉得要爸爸做这样的决定必定也是很不舍得的

对不起妈，我们的执著让您辛苦了

对不起爸，我们的坚持让您难过了

我有时也在想，如果有一天，我是要做决定的那个人，我会如何呢？

我真的能下得了决定吗？

妈，您在另一个国度，还过的好吗？

妈，我念您！

莫名。。。

今天，心情莫名的不好。
心情就好像今天的天气一样，阴阴地
都不知道我的决定是正确吗。
感觉越来越不对
我曾经告诉自己：
要对自己所做的一切决定负责任，决不后悔
可是，我的内心越来越挣扎
心里就是有种不滋味儿
到头来，是自己把自己弄得一团糟
啊！！！！！不好的心情，请你快快离开
2014年，请你快点到来！
能否改变我的生活，就需等到2014年！

【永恒契约】手镯

【永恒契约】手镯

This is the bangle that I'd wish for after the drama "Triumph in the Skies II".

The story of this bangle is about a boyfriend presented this bangle to his girlfriend just to want her to stay with her forever. He'll keep the key by himself. The girl has no way to open the bangle unless to get the key from the boy. That's something like a promise between a couple where will not leave each other forever, will tide together forever.

And yes, I've just told him once that I wanted to buy this bangle because I saw it in the online shopping website. Then he asked me that how come is a girl buy for herself? That's no right what. Then I just laughed and said I'm just joking. I'm not going to buy it as I felt wasted. 

I think should be after couple of weeks, I've received this thingy by Pos. He said he wanted to give me a surprised by not asking me whether I am received it or not. But he felt that it took too long to reach my hand, so he decided to ask me whether I received any parcel or not these few days.

On the day itself, I saw a note pasted on my house's gate from Pos and it's for me. There is nobody at home, so I have to collect it from the office. So the next day morning, I went to collect it in the early morning as I was very anticipated what's the thing inside the parcel that he wanted to give me surprise.

So when I got my parcel, I straight messaged him that I got the thing! He asked me to open it through video call.

When I opened it slowly and "politely", tearing off piece by piece of papers and finally I saw the Tiffany & Co. box. I opened the box and I stunt and argghhhh... it's the bangle! The bangle that I wanted before. That moment I was feeling touch and surprised. I can't believe that just a simply joking, but he remembered it and put an effort to search for me this bangle. 

Thank you very much from the bottom of my heart and I will very appreciate this bangle.

Seven!

Seven days ago, I was sending you to the airport and saying goodbye to you. 

Seven days ago, at this time, you were on the plane while I was on my bed.

Seven days ago, I still can hold your hand, hugged you and smelled you.

Seven days ago, we were having breakfast and dinner together.

Seven days ago, yes just seven days ago. 

These seven days just a short period but yet I feel like seven weeks or seven months.

Why does the time pass so slow? 

Can I twist the clock to make the time pass faster?

Can I survive for the remaining 365 days?

Yes, I can and I must! 

Goodbye!

I've been saying thousands of goodbye to the people around me. But the feeling was not the same as this time. 

People always said sorry seems to be the hardest word but I would guessed goodbye is the hardest word. 

We should think for positive side which actually goodbye means that the day for meet up will come very soon. 

So, let's wait for the next meet up which I also don't know when is it. 

Happy trails to you, until we meet again. 

It's complicated

I have complicated feeling right now.
I don't know what should I do and what shouldn't I do.